All she ever wanted was to be accepted, cherished and loved all around.
All her life she has never asked for much, now she asks for strength and patience as she lies alone in the dark center of a room full of loud silence, creeping darkness and a transparent figure who won't stop whispering hush.
"When things get bad, go to sleep." "Go to sleep to get rid of the pain." "Forget them, all of them."
The transparent figure with the soft, monotone voice coos at her, and that is exactly what she did.
She lied on her bed, cuddled the stuffed animal he once gave her and slept for hours and hours. Stuck in a dream land where he was there...in gray and black joggers and a white top. Waiting for her in the swooping low branches of the pastel green trees. Climbing, laughing, complimenting, cherishing...loving. All these things he gave her in this world, sometimes she wished she could stay. Stay with the him that loved her for who she was, never trying to change her...never winding her up and throwing her away. Serious eyes and handsome smiles, genuine and real, true love. Every time before waking up, in her dream land she would lie with him in her garden and sob because she knew pretty soon, she'd have to go. It broke his heart every time to know that the other side of him...the one who hurts her, whether it be intentional or not, is the one she has to face again upon returning to Consciousness. Holding her tightly, he'd shower her with as much love as his non-existent self could before Reality took the love of his life away from him again. The number one rule of her world is that "Good-byes" are not permitted. She hates the word goodbye..."Never say Goodbye. Goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting..."
"I promise I'll stay with you forever, I won't leave you in the gutters like everyone else did."
"You're crazy but I love you." Alright, Alexander. I'll remember all these things for which you have told me...don't you dare forget. I remember everything...
💔Bella Beba💔
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